Sunday, May 23, 2010
Hoping you all are having a wonderful Sunday. Somehow I am feeling a bit discombobulated today. I just can't seem to get it going. I think...no, I am sure....that I am spending far too much time thinking about the rough week coming up at work rather than enjoying my time off. We've two more trainings coming up...on Monday and on Wednesday...and these trainings are quite a distance from my job with no bus or train service. I've trouble walking any sort of distance with my fibro...and still suffer from a bit of shortness of breath...so I am feeling rather anxious...especially the Wednesday one where I have to work from 9 to 1, then training from 1:30 to 4:30, then back to work until 7pm. That definitely is going to be a rough one, but I shouldn't be allowing this to rent space in my head today...and I am determined now that I see it in writing, the make my Sunday afternoon much more enjoyable than the morning.
"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do, than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails."
Actually, I don't know how much I agree with this. I understand what he is saying, but I think I've lived my life to the fullest. I've had so many experiences, ...many loves, many jobs, and, yes, I have made many mistakes, but I have learned not to dwell on them. The mistakes I have made were made by my own choice, and I am blessed to have had the free will to make those decisions. As I mentioned in an earlier post this week, some people are unable to live their lives without reading the stars...and every little thing they do in their lives is done when the stars say it is right. That's not freedom, in my book. And astrology was never meant to be a ball and chain.
Sometimes I look back and find myself disappointed in some of the things...I think we all do... I never did or never accomplished, but then I look to what I have done and what I have accomplished , and all the disappointments fade away. I am disappointed in my fear of flying because that means I will never see the home of my ancestors, but I can read a book and close my eyes and will myself there.
Yes, I can honestly say that my blessings outweigh my disappointments...my friends outweigh my enemies...and, as far as I am concerned, I am far from finished. Everyone have a wonderful day.