Ah, that was it...the unknown reason for those sad and aimless feelings I was going through yesterday. I was totally burned out. It's so hard everyday taking in everyone else's issues while trying to deal with my own, feeling others' pain, day in and day out.I have learned to separate work from home once I leave the job, but how do you separate work when you are at work? Sooner or later is sneaks up on you, catches you...and your body simply forbids you to go to work. There is a tired feeling in your bones, a sadness that comes from within, a general sense of melancholy. My problem is I usually ignore the clues and push myself to go ever further, but not on this day.
Perhaps it was because the rain was coming down in buckets, I don't know, but I knew the moment my alarm went off at 5:30 am that I was not going to work today. Oh, I got up and went through the motions. It's hard for me to give in, so I sat and sipped my coffee...all the while debating..."should I or shouldn't I?" Well, the shouldn't I finally won out today. I got hubby up for work and climbed back into bed for a much needed day of rest. Believe it or not, I just got up about 30 minutes ago. That is really odd for me, and you know that life has finally caught up with me.
Our bodies know what we need, but we rarely listen. We push ourselves and push and push until we collapse. We have to learn to listen. Yeah, right, that coming from ME who pushes herself beyond endurance. But I'm going to make myself a promise to listen more...Will you make that promise to yourself?