Sunday, May 9, 2010
Happy Mother's Day
Wishing all of you mothers out there a very Happy Mother's Day. The weather here is so fall-like today...cold and windy. The heat actually came up for awhile this morning. My youngest called me and my eldest gave me the nicest card and of course, a Barnes & Noble giftcard. They know what I like.
Mother's Day is always rather bittersweet day for me. I am so blessed with my two loving sons who never forget me, but 'I' have no one to call on this special day. I miss my grandma and my mom so much. I'd always been so close to my grandma and was devastated by the loss of this loving woman when I was 17 years old. And my mom? Gosh, I hope she knows how much I love and miss her. For so many years ours was such an antagonistic relationship. She'd always seemed so resentful of me, and I never tried to find out why. Instead, I held a grudge for many years....oh, if I could only take things back.
As I grew older and started to look within; some say I was facing my shadow; others called in 'inner child' work...but I learned to understand just WHY my mom was like she was, that in her own way, she had to have loved me to stay with a man she literally despised for the sake of the child...rather than be wed to the love of her life. She gave up so much for me; I only wish that she had trusted me enough when she was alive, that we could have ironed out our difficulties. Mom, you are truly loved, and on this special day, I honor you. So, mom, grandma, I know you are both still with me. Happy Mother's Day. I love and miss you both. And to all the other ladies' in my ancestral tree. Thank you for giving me life.
And to all my friends in blogland, thank you all for being my friends. May you all have a wonderful joyous day.