Monday, September 22, 2014

Back Home

Normal EKG, blood work, and urine.  BP was sky high though.  175/137. Kept me all day to get it down.  Don't have any idea what triggered these episodes. I really thought it was the end, and I was scared.  Not ready to go yet.  Going off to rest now so I can welcome Autumn in in style  Talk to you all tomorrow. 
At the hospital. Heart racing. Please send prayers and positive thoughts.

Monday Morning This and That

 Then summer fades and passes and October comes.
We'll smell smoke then, and feel an unexpected sharpness,
a thrill of nervousness, swift elation, a sense of sadness and departure.

  Thomas Wolfe

Good morning, everyone, on this glorious day of the Autumnal Equinox.  Equinox means 'equal night'. Day and night are about the same length all over the world. At 10:29 pm EST summer will officially be over.  This year, more than any other year, it seems that it was never even here. And as much as I don't like the heat, I always feel a sense of sadness for all those things I had planned on which never came to fruition.  But this summer I accomplished quite a bit...the most important being the decision to take control of my body, to heal myself.  

This is a time to give thanks for the things we have, and I have so much to be grateful for.  I may not have much money, but I have the things that are important in life--love, my wonderful family, Miss Minga, new friendships, having enough to meet my basic needs, watching the sun rise and set, the beauty of the moon, the heavens, and last, but not least, all of you my dear Blogger friends.  All of you who have put up with my rants, my whining, as well as sharing in my joy.  For all of you I am forever grateful.

The Autumnal Equinox is also known as Mabon.   For our ancestors this was traditionally the time of year they rested after after their labors as the sun continues to fade in the sky.  My house is in the process being decorated in the colors of Mabon--red, orange, gold, brown, and russet. Still have curtains to hang and decorations in need of the perfect spot.  Dinner tonight will be roasted chicken, cabbage, and broccoli and cauliflower.  I'll make some wild rice for hubby.  

I never do much in the way of ritual on this day. I guess I am just not a ritual person. I usually light a few candles and talk with my ancestors.  I share with them both my troubles and my achievements, my pain and my joy. So tonight I'll light some gold harvest candles that I've been hanging onto for just this day and begin by saying a small prayer of thanks for the blessings in my life.  Later, in the quiet of the late evening, when dinner and dishes are done, and it is time to cozy up in my chair, take out my journal and make a list of my 'inner harvests', my achievements, and this year I have several.  I am grateful for my life and for the second chance I have been given.  My life is full.

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.
It turns what we have into enough, and more.
It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity.
It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.
Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.

Melody Beattie

Friday, September 19, 2014

Friday Roundup

 While we are living in the present, we must celebrate life every day,
knowing that we are becoming history with every work,
every action, every deed.

Mattie Stepanek

Happy Friday everyone.  And what a week it was.  My first week of working towards better health, and I have to say, I did everything right.  Yesterday was my first weekly weigh-in at WW, and guess how much I lost?  6.2 pounds. It felt especially good when we raised our hands to share positive news, and everyone clapped for me.  The good thing about it is I've not had to go hungry like some of the  diets I have put myself on.

Take one diet I started several years back.  A piece of fruit for breakfast, two slices of turkey on whole wheat (no mayo) for lunch, and veggies and small piece of meat or chicken for dinner.  I tried to do without snacks, but when I did snack, it was a piece of fruit.  Actually, the diet doesn't look bad, and I took off quite a bit of weight, but it got boring, especially the lunch.  So, eventually I ended up going on a binge, and guess which meal I chose to 'throw to the wind'.  Lunch, of course.  And once started, I didn't stop.  It was back to my old way of eating.  Boredom did me in.

Which is why I like WW so much.  One never gets bored.  You can eat just about everything and only need to be careful not to eat too much.  Now, winter may prove to be a wee bit of a problem for me because I hate winter fruits, but I'll work my way through it.  Even if I have make bake my fruits.

And exercise.  Who knew three months ago that I would be so into exercise and getting myself back into shape.  This week they had a party on Tuesday so no exercise, but at least I did get a 'good' hour in on Monday, and this morning I am off for flexibilty and mobility exercise. 

It really helps to see positive results from the changes I am making, but I do have to prepare myself for those 'plateau' weeks that happen to everyone working towards losing weight.  I can't get flustered and begin feeling like a failure.  That's a relapse cue for me, and I must be careful.

Well, that's about it for my week.  I'd say it was a good one.  Going to spend time this weekend looking into some healthy new recipes. The weather is supposed to be good, so maybe I'll take my books to the park.  See you all on Monday.

Have a wonderful weekend.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Thursday Ramble.

Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass...
It's about learning how to dance in the rain.
  Vivian Greene

Good morning, everyone.  It's going to be another gorgeous day.  I'm off to Weight Watchers this morning.  Hoping to see some positive results.  They have me on 27 points per day with 49 bonus weekly points.  I've only used a few of the bonus points.   I like the fact that you never have to go hungry with WW.  That was always my problem with past diets.  A month or so into the diet, and I'd go on a binge...and after that I was off to the races.

Went back to the old Center yesterday.  Wanted to see my friends, and I enjoy the art class...even though it is only coloring a picture.  It is soothing and relaxes me.  I felt good when all my friends came round to welcome me back.  They were all concerned that I wouldn't be back because I had been treated so rudely on Thursday. I chose not to tell them I had found a new and better center, so  I explained that, at this point in my life, my weight has become detrimental to my health, and right now I have to concentrate on losing a few pounds.  Actually, quite a few pounds.  They are aware that I will only be attending on Wednesday.  I genuinely like them and feel badly that it has to be this way, but health and peace of mind come first.

I am just loving this weather.  Not cold, just cool enough for a sweater or light jacket.  I come alive in the alive in the chilly Autumn air. More energy and eager to do things. Hard to believe that next week summer will officially be over.  It's been a quick summer, for sure, and unlike last year, a rather comfortable one.  I am a wee bit concerned, though.  Some have forecasted a snowier winter than last year and have even ventured to say our first snow will appear next month.  Let's hope they are wrong.  

Well, that's about it for this morning.  As you can see, I've nothing exciting to share today, and there are a few things I hope to accomplish before I leave today.  Talk to you all tomorrow.

Have a good one.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Hump Day is Here

One of the most tragic things I know about human nature
is that all of us tend to put off living.
We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over
the horizon instead of enjoying the roses that are
blooming outside our windows today.

Dale Carnegie

 More fall decorating.  One of my end tables.  Those red candies are some of the hottest I ever ate.  I am totally addicted to them.

Good morning, everyone.  And a happy day to all.   Yesterday I went for Balance Class at my new center, but because they were having a party, the class was canceled.  I stayed and had a great time.  A comedian came in and told jokes and afterwards someone put on some old music, and we all sang along.  Wow!!!  How could I have missed this for so long? Last night I sat down and jotted down the pros and cons of each center, and I have to say, the new center won hands down.

Take yesterday, for example.  It was raining in the morning.  In fact, it was 'pouring' at the time I would have had to leave for the old center.  Usually, I would have ended up staying home because if I waited for the rain to stop. I would lose my seat and not be able to sit with my friends for lunch.  One time they gave my seat away by mistake, and I was seated at a table where no one spoke English.  Talk about an uncomfortable lunch!  At the new place, there are NO assigned seats.  You can sit alone if you choose or you can sit with friends.  Hence, I was still able to go in between showers.  I like having the option of choosing where I sit, and not depending on someone who is often in a bad mood to choose your seat for you.

The food at the new center is very good, and they are not stingy with it like the old center. Remember the lady who was hungry who they refused to give her a dish to go home?  In fact, after everyone is served, they will give you a huge portion to take home for only $1.  And no one is turned away hungry.  Someone sits at the exit with brown bag lunches for those who would otherwise go hungry.  They even offered me one as I left, but I refused.  There are plenty of others who need it.

So, tomorrow is Weight Watchers, and I am so looking forward to it.  I've been so good with points, I am sure I must have lost something.  I just don't want to hype myself up too much just in case.  I am feeling better, for sure.  I no longer have that bloated, over stuffed feeling to contend with.  

Well, that's about it for today.  Time to get a move on.  Going to the old center today for art class and to see the friends I made there so I have to get there by a certain time. Talk to you all tomorrow.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Tuesday Ramble

It's important to give yourself a gold star. Recognizing your achievements--big and small--is an important part of honoring who you are. Gold stars have the powerful effect of undermining and dethroning all the critical stuff you've heard about yourself.

Leslie Levine

This is part of my Autumn owl set.  Can't find where I packed the rest.  They will show up.

It's a rainy morning out there, and I am still trying to figure out what to do today. Had such a nice time at the new center yesterday.  I exercised, met some new friends, and had a wonderful lunch.  I don't remember being made to feel so welcome in the old place. Hubby told me I should stick with this new center since I was so happy with it, and forget about the other one, but I think one day a week to see my friends.  I was only going to attend on Wednesdays because I do enjoy the new art class, but I may go today as well.  They'd planned a trip in the new center, and balance class is going to be canceled.  Speaking of exercise....

It's been such a long time I did any 'real' exercise, and I have NEVER participated  in an exercise class. Usually my exercises included a few jumping jacks and some sit-ups, and those were done many, many years ago.  In recent years, my only exercise was walking, and I haven't done much of that anymore. So, I wasn't very limber to say the least.  But I think I did pretty well considering.  I did feel a charlie horse coming on when we began exercising our calves and my toes started to spasm when we did our foot exercises, but I worked my way through it. 

And by the time the music came on, and it was time to begin some mild aerobics, she'd say 'left leg to the side', and I'd put my right leg out.  They were moving so fast I just couldn't keep up, and it didn't help that my back was killing me.  But, the important thing is not HOW I did it, but the fact that I actually completed the one hour of exercise.  I am so proud of myself.

In all honesty, it has been a long time since I actually felt that sense of accomplishment. It makes you feel good when you do things for yourself.  It makes you feel better and want to achieve more things.  And with that, I will leave you with the following little tale from "Seeing with Our Souls"....

A seeker searched for years to know the secret of achievement and success in human life. One night in a dream a sage appeared bearing
the answer to the secret.

The sage said simply: "Stretch out your hand and reach what you can."

"No, it can't be that simple," the seeker said.

And the sage said softly, "You are right, it is something harder. It is
this: Stretch out your hand and reach what you cannot."

Now that's vision.

Joan Chittister