Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Good morning, dear friends. It's another cloudy, rainy day here in the city, but thankfully, it should be clearing out just in time for tomorrow's full moon...which, by the way, will be in Scorpio. This looks to be a magical time. The scorpion is a very intense little creature, and Scorpio is about secrets, the hidden, emotional depth, and transformation. We become more attuned to the hidden or secret influences when the Moon is in Scorpio. And because is such an intense sign, it dares us to look beyond the surface and turn our attention to that which is hiding beneath. I've found this to be a good time to do some shadow work...or at least, to make a start on it. This full moon is one of empowerment through transformation...This is also a good time to work on overcoming your inner obsessions, thoughts, and desires...a time to begin thinking of changes.
I don't know about you, but throughout much of my lifetime , I haven't dealt very well with change. I hated it. Never could understand why things couldn't remain...unchanged. I know that is why I stay in jobs that I hate. I don't adapt well. It's not that I don't adapt, it just takes me a longer time. My usual outgoing self disappears, and I revert back to that shy little girl who kept her head down and was afraid to speak. Yes, even at 63, she is still hiding...within.
Oh, I know that change is a part of life. Oh, how well I know...and it's not that I've never made changes; in fact, I've made quite a few of them...relationships...jobs...homes....even states...It's just that I've tried to avoid making them whenever I could. Resistance is my middle name. And it's so easy to resist change, because it stimulates fear...it's unknown...and we feel out of control. The time comes, though, that we come to realize that resisting change won't stop it; nothing will.
And actually, as I was writing this...I've been thinking of all the changes that I have made in my life...of the people who have come and gone. Human life is like nature...It has its ebbs and flows; it lives and dies. And maybe, just maybe, I'm being a little hard on myself...for I have dealt with many changes...many difficult changes...and I have survived. Maybe I'm not as bad at it as I thought I was. Perhaps one change I have to make is learning how to 'give myself more credit' for being more adaptable than I think I am.
Enough rambling for the day. Hope you all have a great day.