TGIF

People are afraid when dark clouds gather and thunder clashes.
But clouds and thunder are nothing; they are only the sources
of rain for the hot and parched earth. Do not be afraid of clouds;
do not be afraid of difficulties. Keep moving straight ahead.
Give your hand to God, and he will keep you
in the light twenty-four hours a day.

Baba Virsa Singh 

All I can say is, "TGIF".   This has been a hell of a week, to be sure.  On Monday I had my appointment with my Endo, and that went fairly well.  I left there feeling a sense of relief.  Although I was told I still needed the thyroid biopsy, my blood pressure was down and my TSH level was normal.  Everything seemed to be going in the right direction. But then, yesterday I had the appointment with the specialist and that....

.... did not go quite as I had expected.  I guess you could say I was lulled into feeling that everything was going to be all right, that I'd walk away from the appointment with an air of relief, that I was going to be told that everything was fine, and a biopsy wouldn't be necessary. Then the bottom fell out. According to the specialist, "The nodule is bigger than I was led to believe. I'm afraid we have to do a biopsy."  And, to compound my worries, "If the nodule was located on the surface, it could be done very easily, but the nodule is deep so there is a 40 percent chance of something going wrong." He explained this could either be the induction of an air bubble which could collapse my lung or excessive bleeding, in which case they will admit me into the hospital.  Needless to say, I am not feeling very well at the present time, and this weekend will be spent gathering my thoughts....

 

 ...that, and cooking.  It's that weekend again, so on Saturday I will be busy for most of the day. I guess that is good because it will keep my mind occupied.  Sometimes thinking can be my worst enemy. And on Sunday, I am seriously going to the church.  I felt so at peace on Easter with our Mother surrounding me.  I am determined not to let this get me down.  Life is a blessing and I don't plan to spend it feeling sorry for myself.

I recently found the following and have adopted it as my mantra. I've printed it out and almost have it committed to memory.  I think it is great for any one of us going through hardship of any kind.

In times of adversity, I remember I am strong enough to meet the challenges
of my life. I am equal to every situation, a match for every difficulty. Sourced
in the power of the Universe, I allow that power to work through me. I meet
calamity with strength. I have stamina. Rather than draw on limited resources,
I draw on the infinite power within me that moves through me to accomplish
its good. I am fueled by all the love, all the strength there is. Loving strength
melts mountains. I am ever partnered and supplied by the universal flow.
Knowing this, I do not doubt my strength. I am strong and secure.

Julia Cameron