The best cure for worry, depression, melancholy,
brooding, is to go deliberately forth and try to
lift with one's sympathy the gloom of somebody else.
Monday, and it is time to return to work. I can't believe I am up this early, but everything is moving so slowly around here. I think it will be a good thing for me. I'm not even watching the newscasts anymore; in fact, I spent this weekend watching Christmas movies on Hallmark. But I have fallen into quite a funk, a profound sadness, feeling lost within myself, that I am finding hard to shake. I have been struggling to shake this feeling of being lost, empty, fatigued, restless, and sad which permeates my entire being. I hurt everywhere. It's one of the worst feelings that I know.
There are times when all of us feel lost and alone, but it can be especially hard on those of us who are empaths when there is a natural disaster or some other tragic event that affects our planets. I is very hard for us to handle, very hard.
The stress of taking in the emotions of other people, of sensing information on a continual basis, of being a "human sponge", of being driven by deep inner forces that are not understood, all create a "torture chamber" of sorts within the average Empath. This does not have to be as melodramatic as I make it sound, but please understand - it frequently is for the subject.
From the 'Book of Storms' by Jadoa Tai Alexander" which you can find free online...here http://mysilentecho.com/dreamtongue1.htm
Perhaps it is business of returning to work that I need. I have too much solitude here, too much time on my hands. Being with others, helping others is what I need right now. I have to take an active part in things. I am sure I have clients who have been quite traumatized, and I need to be there to help them through this. Some have wondered why, as an empath, I chose a career that put me on the front lines, why I would chose a job where I would be exposed to other people's pain on a daily basis. It's because it is what I 'chose' to do, a path I have followed in other lifetimes when I was a priest in one lifetime and an astrologer in another...both helping professions.
So, the power is back at work, and I am actually looking forward to having a 'reason' to go out. My only concern is getting there and back. My train, the 'N' was one of the hardest hit and is still not up in running so traveling is going to be a bit difficult. I have a choice between taking a bus and two trains or taking a bus to an express bus which will take me to the city. The second route may be the easiest, but the longest and most expensive. But, who am I to complain? Others are wondering where they are going to sleep tonight.