Chief Yellow Hawk's Prayer

Overslept this morning. I was so busy at work yesterday, I barely had time to eat my lunch. Don't know how it happened, but this darn paperwork seems have gotten away from me again. First the storm hit, and I wasn't able to travel, then finally went back to work and the struggle to catch up on things that had become due while I was off.  

I hate to admit it, but I even missed the appointment for my thyroid sonogram this week. It was supposed to be on Tuesday, but with Monday off, I ended up confusing my days and Tuesday felt like Monday.  Why, I even put in a vacation day for Wednesday, and it wasn't until I almost missed 'Covert Affairs' on Tuesday night that I realized my mistake.  Hope all this forgetfulness is just a sign of all that has been going on and being overly busy.   

They fired our new intake worker yesterday. He's been there about two months.  That's too bad because I really liked him.  When he first started he added a spark of joy and humor to the place, but as time went on, I began seeing more and more of his dark side as he proceeded to burn himself out.  I talked to him until I was blue in the face about taking on more than he could handle, but to no avail. From day one he was paranoid about being fired, so paranoid that he actually brought it upon himself. But then there was also this intense anger at his ex-wife that was literally eating away at him. He never took it out on us, but as time passed, it was easy to see that he hadn't learned to leave it at home. He'd often bang his fist on the desk when he felt overwhelmed. And then we he talked about her!  Oh my, such intense anger! I fear that until he is able to let it go, he will be moving from job to job.

Not much time to write anything here this morning, so I'll leave you with the following:

O Great Spirit, Whose voice I hear in the winds,

and whose breath gives life to all the world,

hear me, I come before you, one of your children.

I am small and weak. I need your strength and wisdom.

Let me walk in beauty and make my eyes

ever behold the red and purple sunset.

Make my hands respect the things you have made,

my ears sharp to hear your voice.

Make me wise so that I may know the things you

have taught my people,

the lesson you have hidden in every leaf and rock.

I seek strength not to be superior to my brothers,

but to be able to fight my greatest enemy, myself.

Make me ever ready to come to you with clean hands and straight eyes,

so when life fades as a fading sunset,

my spirit may come to you without shame.

Chief Yellow Hawk