I dialed a number and got the following recording, 'I am not available right now, but thank you for caring enough to call. I am making some changes in my life. Please leave a message after the beep. If I do not return your call, you are one of the changes.'
I love the above quote. It's exactly where I am at right now....or, should I say, exactly where I should be. Because I am not there...yet. I'm having a hard time letting go. On Monday I couldn't make it to the afternoon without contacting everyone at work. I just HAD to let them all know about my new smart phone. After all, my obsolete flip top was such a joke. But, I realized afterwards that that was just an excuse. The truth is, I have not been able to let go yet. As I sat alone in my apartment, I was missing the companionship of my co-workers.
I guess this is something to be expected. Transitions from one life phase to another are never easy, and the journey from career to retirement is one of life's great transitions. After 50 years in the workforce, I wake with nowhere to go. It in itself is a great feeling, but, alas, I am also feeling a bit lonely. My co-workers were important to me in my work life. I interacted with them on a daily basis. They were a part of my network; in fact, they were my ONLY network. And, that, my friends, is exactly where the problem comes in. They were not my friends, they were my peers, but they were there, and I was not so alone when I had them.
Retirement was something that I wanted, something that I needed, and I know I made the right decision. I know how I want to spend my time. I have a long list of things I want to do. But, right now I am in limbo, standing between one world and the next. I've decided to wait to begin my classes until all these medical procedures are out of the way because, at this point, they are dominating my life. But, soon, very soon, I will move on. And, as I move on in life, I hope to meet some new people, only they will not be my peers, they will be my friends.
“Letting go means to come to the realization that some people are a part of your history but not a part of your destiny.”