Thursday, June 13, 2013

Another Day, Another Storm

We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot.

Eleanor Roosevelt

Oh, what a special woman she was!  A woman born before her time. Her words live on forever.

Speaking of looking fear in the face, I'm off this morning for a follow up with the doctor to set a date for the biopsy.  Don't mind telling you I am scared.  Part of me just wants this over with and the other part wants to just wish it away. Deny it and it will disappear.  Of course, I the rational part of me knows that is not possible, and no matter what the diagnosis, it is important that I catch it early.  Remember I spoke about hubby's cousin? Hubby found out that the doctors told her they saw something on her lungs years ago, but she refused to follow upon it saying, "I'm going to die anyway," and continued smoking. Now, sadly, her cancer has spread to her liver and other organs. There is no hope. I don't want that happening to me.  Hopefully, this will not turn out serious, and I will finally be more at ease.  But if it should be the worst, I'll face it with courage.  At this point though, I'm more worried about getting my blood pressure down.

On another note, at least one fear has been wiped off my slate of worries.  We're due for another severe storm tonight, another one just like last Friday, and all I could picture was my ceiling caving in.  There no way it was going to hold up against another onslaught. Then hubby called to tell me the men had just finished fixing up the crack outside.  Oh my,  I can't begin to tell you how relieved I was.  I'd actually been picturing myself sitting up all night.  Who wouldn't if they thought the ceiling was going to come crashing down on their heads. The ceiling will be repaired once everything is dried. At least now it won't get any worse. 

And, what's with all these storms?  Maybe it's me, but I just can't remember this many back to back storms here in the city.  They said on the news this morning that scientists have predicted that the city will continue to get warmer and wetter as the years pass by, and that by 2020, more people will be living in the flood zone as it expands and stretches to other areas of the city.  And that's right around the corner.

Well, it's time to get a move on if I want to see the doctor before work.  Hoping you all have a great day, and if you are in the path of the storm, please stay safe.


  1. So happy your ceiling was fixed!!!

    We are getting ready to "build an ark" up here too. So-much-rain.

    Best wishes with your doctoring.


  2. I know how scared you've been through all this medical process and I have to say how brave you've been. Denial is easier for sure, but like your husbands cousin showed it can often be worse than not taking something head on. Wishing you lots of blessings for the Dr. and so glad they fixed your ceiling problems, phew!

  3. I thought you were doing the biopsy on Monday and came everyday to check if you had the results back,but did n't say anything so i would not add to your stress. I completely misunderstood the whole procedure!!
    Best of luck with the exams my friend!

  4. Sending wonderful, comforting Reiki to you Mary! May you go with peace in your heart to the doctor's. I am keeping my fingers crossed for your ceiling.