Friday, March 29, 2013


The truest prayer begins when we pass beyond word into deep silence, when
lips are hushed; when racing thoughts are stilled; when emotions are placid
as "the dawning over the waveless ocean."

Albert E. Day

I am so glad that Friday has arrived with its brief reprieve from the 'house of horrors'.  It wasn't always the way it is now.  At one point, I'd actually become comfortable there.  Yes, I do remember how I fought the changes in the beginning, but when I gave up fighting and went along with the flow, I found that I actually didn't mind the lack of office set up as much as I thought.  

But, that was then and this is now.  Since that time, with agencies closing all around us, my bosses have become so 'numbers conscious' that they seem to have forgotten that we are human beings and not robots.  A caseload such as mine, which at last count, was up to 43 is unheard of.  And between the groups and the paperwork, I often find myself eating lunch with one hand and typing with the other.  And the clients we have now are more unstable than we had in the past.  There are far more fights between them and threats toward staff.  Then, add to that the sense of entitlement our management has instilled in them by giving into their every whim and allowing them to get away with things that other treatment programs would consider reason for instant termination, and you literally find yourself enslaved in a house of horrors.  No wonder my blood pressure was on the rise again yesterday. Wednesday had been a nightmare.

This weekend is a cooking weekend for me, but I really don't need that much.  Still have plenty of my soup on hand and several meals on hand.  At the most, it will only take me a few hours in the kitchen on Sunday. That will give me some time to plan for Easter Sunday.

I still hope to make it to Church this Sunday.  It's been years since I have attended an Easter Service and never in a Catholic Church, but from all I have read many Catholic practices are also pagan. These can include: Holy Rituals, Holy Water, prayer beads, incense, healing, candles, the worshipping of images and relics, worship of saints and angels and the worship of Mary.  My sister-in-law, a devout Catholic, has carries a statue of Mary from house to house every Tuesday night, and prays that Mary will heal the sick.  And the statue is part of the Church.  But, that is why I feel drawn to 'Our Lady of Perpetual Help'. The Holy Mother is there.

All, right, that's enough out of me. I've already said too much. I really don't like discussing religion here and do so only minimally at best.  I know that some of you may not agree with what I have said here, and you are entitled to your beliefs.  I'm not here to preach nor am I here to encourage anger. Tolerance is one of my virtues. I'm just expressing my opinion.

And with that, I wish you all a very Happy Easter, one filled with peace, love and joy.


  1. So sorry about how work is really a house of horrors now. Only good thing is, you will be able to leave it, in the forseeable future!

  2. I am counting the days with you Mary! You are in an unsafe place at work and have been for quite some time now. Tolerance is the key, in this house we are now down to three different religions. A few years back there were a couple more, all under one roof and all respected each others beliefs. Wishing you a very peaceful Easter filled with love and laughter! Love you!


  3. Happy Easter/Oestar matter how you choose to honor it...I love that you embrace your faith by honoring many, as do I. :)

    I'll be busy packing and culling, lol...gettin' ready for the big move! It's almost upon me now.

    Sending Love and Vibrant Energy Your Way! :)
    In Sister Love...Akasa

  4. Although I'm not Catholic (nor quite Christian either), long ago I attended the Saturday night Easter Vigil Mass for several years with a friend. It is so full of drama and joy and pure pageantry! You might think about going to that one if you can.

    One day at a time. The hardest time in any job is when you've made the decision to leave but still need to be there a while longer. Keep focused especially on your personal safety.

    Love to you this Easter, whatever you may do!

  5. A very happy Easter weekend to you! I have considered going to mass to simply bear witness to the ritual. I enjoy rituals of all kinds - nothing offends me anymore - I've learned to see the commonality in other spiritual practices with my own.

    I hope you get a chance to put your feet up this weekend!