Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.
Ah, here we are. Monday morning. It's a nasty day outdoors...rain, wind, and a forecast of snow in the afternoon. But it doesn't bother me at all because I don't have to go out today. We get our birthday off with pay, and as soon as I heard this forecast on Friday, I requested this day off. Besides, unlike every other year, there is no need to hang onto the day 'in case' I need it later in the year. I don't plan on being there later in the year, so if I don't take it now, I lose it.
Speaking of birthdays, it's official now. I am a senior citizen. It's hard to explain how I feel. There's a great deal of excitement as I prepare to enter a new stage of my life, but when I see that 'senior citizen' staring back at me when I look at my new metrocard, I feel a sense of loss for the youth I have left behind. It's not that I don't embrace my age. I guess it's pretty much the same as when one turns 21 and leaves childhood behind to become an adult.
I also felt a tinge of sadness at my job on Friday, not enough to make me change my mind, though. It's become too painful traveling back and forth, as well as dangerous once I get there. But, late afternoon I went to the ladies room and when I returned, my co-workers all were huddled around my work area and began singing "Happy Birthday". They gave me a lovely card, an oreo cookie ice cream cake which was delicious, and the lovely peach roses pictured above. Peach roses are indicative of peace, harmony, gratitude and thanks. They show that the receiver is much appreciated and that their efforts are acknowledged. Needless to say, tears came to my eyes.
My interview looked bad. It shows how computer unsavvy I really am. I didn't know how to answer her questions and get them back to her. Different color blues, different size print, some bold, some not. That and the fact that I sat there and did the interview when I was totally burned out from work. I'd say that was one of those 'if only' situations, if only I could do it again. (Sigh)
Sunday was spent in some much needed quiet time. After hubby got up, I smudged my house with some white sage. Hubby's sister and niece had shown up on Saturday, and the fact is, as nice as they may treat me to my face, I know the evilness that goes on behind my back so when I arose on Sunday, I could feel the negative energy they left behind. All this hatred is so silly because they don't even know me and never gave me a chance, but I made the choice to befriend one of the sisters they don't like so I've become an outcast as well. One day I will tell you about the unbelievable things they have done to me, but for now, I am going to keep this a joyous day.
Afterwards, I burned some wonderful incense a dear friend sent to me and settled in my rocker to read...and, of course, watch a marathon of one of my favorite shows....'Psyche'. There is nothing like a good dose of laughter to cure what ails you.
Wishing you all a wonderful day.
All you need in the world is love and laughter. That's all anybody needs. To have love in one hand and laughter in the other.