Friday, November 4, 2011

Home Should Be a Place of Peace

Weekends are a bit like rainbows; they look good from a distance but disappear when you get up close to them.  --John Shirley

Have a busy weekend lined up.  We've decided to go the real estate route rather than what we have been doing...riding around looking for 'For Rent' signs.  So, this weekend we have appointments to see apartments both on Saturday and on Sunday.  I have to remember to stay focused and keep a clear head about what I want.  Don't want to rush into something just because I am so desperate to get out of here, and now I am more desperate than ever.

Wednesday night we had to call the police.  The two brothers were 'drunk as skunks'.  One was upstairs tearing the house apart.  It sounded like furniture was being tossed across the room.  The other was trying to break down the outside door to get in, and a few times I was sure the door was going to come down.  And, since it was my late night, I'd just gotten home from work and was trying to quietly eat my dinner while watching 'Criminal Minds'.  I began to shake and tears began to well in my eyes.  Hubby dialed '911' and tried to settle me down.  "This is between them.  They're not coming after you."   I know that, but needless to say, I couldn't finish my dinner once all this began.  You work hard all day, you're tired an hungry, and then just as you kick your shoes off to relax, the storm begins...and that's not what a home is about.

Home is a shelter from storms - all sorts of storms. --William J. Bennett

All was quiet by the time the police finally arrived...two hours later.  It was obvious they were both shocked when they discovered what time we had actually called.  Now, that is kind of frightening in itself.  Someone is trying to kick down the door, and takes the '911' operator two hours to report the call.  You'd best believe I reported this. 

I'm going to be 65 in a few months, and I just cannot handle all this stress. I have to get out of there.  Told my landlady last night that this was the clincher.  She was hoping I'd hang for awhile, but, no, I can't sit around waiting for another bomb to fall.  Sooner or later it will take its toll on my health.

So, dear friends, keep your fingers crossed that something turns up for us this weekend.  I'm not going to jump into something, just to have a place to go.  I want something that I will be comfortable in, something that has a good aura about it.  As a loner, I am not interested in what my neighbors are like, but I do want to have a good feeling when I enter the building.

Wishing you all a weekend filled with joy and peace.

Home is the one place in all this world where hearts are sure of each other.  It is the place of confidence.  It is the place where we tear off that mask of guarded and suspicious coldness which the world forces us to wear in self-defense, and where we pour out the unreserved communications of full and confiding hearts.  It is the spot where expressions of tenderness gush out without any sensation of awkwardness and without any dread of ridicule.--Frederick W. Robertson


  1. keeping everything crossed i can...good luck !!

  2. Sweet, Wise, Mary...I am so, so, sorry you are having to deal with this. I am going to light a candle for you right now and send up prayers on the smoke!

    Hang in there Beloved...good things are coming for you, I can feel it!

    If you need me, you know where I am!


  3. Ohhhhh my Dear! I'm sure all of us (your friends) will keep you in mind, this weekend. Sending good thoughts and wishes, that you do find the best, which is out there.

    I don't say "the perfect place." To me, that's kind of asking-too-much. But a place which does welcome you. You so neeeeeeed this.

    Gentle hugs,
    "It is the glory and the worry of heavy laden boughs,
    the preparation of the pantry for winter.
    It is the bloom of the land, preserved."

    ~Amy Machamer

  4. Oh dear Mary.....I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!!



  5. "I want something that I will be comfortable in, something that has a good aura about it. As a loner, I am not interested in what my neighbors are like, but I do want to have a good feeling when I enter the building."

    So mote it be.

  6. Mary, I am angry at these people, I cannot begin to tell you how much! And the added aggravation of the slow police response. I think the fact that you have told the landlady that this is really IT, has released you from the current place, and will freely allow the right place to turn up. I will be thinking about you and your hubby and sending light and love to you. Keep a good thought!!!

  7. My oh my ....ohhhhhhhhhh myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
    Heaven help us. (((hugs)))

  8. If the thought of staying where you are has ever crossed your mind recently...

    This incident was sent to guarantee that you continue forward with your plans to move to a new place,
    one that will become your sanctuary.

    Forge ahead and do NOT look behind you.

    Happy weekend Mary

  9. Good luck with your search for a new home. In our last place we had a neighbour who smashed windows for fun so I know how the stress can get to you. We've had our sanctuary for a year now and I count my blessings every day. Hang on in there, the right place is out there somewhere and peace will return.