Find a quiet space where you can sit comfortably. Close your eyes and gently breathe into yourself until your mind and body quiet down. Now, become aware of your heart...breathe. Just keep on breathing until your mind and body are still.
Allow yourself to become aware of a question you might have or some area in your life where you need guidance. Breathe in with the question until you feel calm and have separated yourself from any answer or sense of direction that you may already have become attached to. Once you know you are no longer attached, allow the question to resurface again. Breathe and feel inside of your body. Consider an option and allow your body a chance to respond. Then, consider another option and again, notice how your body responds. If you have another option, consider it now. Notice your body's reaction. The positive or neutral reaction is usually the best course. Give thanks for your realization.
Now, breathe deeply and exhale through your mouth. Wiggle your fingers and toes; then, gently open your eyes.
This meditation was not what I had originally been planning to share today, but since I will be dealing with a decision today, I figured this would be a great time for me to share this mediation with you. Things sometimes pop up in our lives, and we need to sometimes make a difficult decision. Sometimes we also tend to jump into the first answer that comes to mind and only realize when it is too late, that we have made a wrong decision...which is why it is important for us to take time to meditate on our answer/response.
As most of you know, I have been working on my Druid classes with The New Order of Druids. It's been three years now, and I have completed the Bardic section and am halfway through the Ovate course. Then, on Friday I attempted to post my latest lesson and find the website and the college gone...Yes, GONE. Thinking it a computer glitch, I tried again yesterday. There is no more website. I already emailed a school contact, but had no response so I emailed my ex-mentor who had just retired. I asked if the college was gone. Her response was, "I don't know. I haven't heard anything since I left. I only know that the site was hacked." So, what does that mean? What does it mean to us students who somehow have been left out in the cold without words as to what is going on? If the school does come back up, how do I feel about returning after their, what I consider, irresponsible treatment of students? After all, it has been three days since I emailed the only connection I had at the school...and no response. Sadly, I cannot even get into my old lessons and grades.
And what do I do at this point? There are several Druid orders that I can apply to, but these orders are not the same as a semester at college. Each order follows their own ways and leanings be it Reconstructionism, Celtic history, Earth magic and psychology(NOD). In other words, they are all so different, it is just a matter of my transferring over. It may be a matter of "starting all over" and after three years of work, do I really want to do that? But, I have enjoyed the learning experience, and it all brings me closer to my ancestors.
So, as you can see, I have several difficult decisions that I have to make. Do I start over elsewhere or do I just let my studies go?