Thursday, December 8, 2011

Christmas Past



Today we had planned  to go to the apartment to put the curtain rods up and hang the curtains, but hubby woke up with a backache,  so we decided to put it off. He wanted to go, but how can you climb up and down a ladder with your back out.  Instead, I went for a much needed trim of my hair (I was beginning to look like a wild woman).  It felt good to have someone taking care of me.  

Afterwards, I went to the 99 cent store and made out like a champ.  We don't have a Dollar store in my area; instead, we have stores where mostly everything is 99 cents.  I got an over the door rack, an over the sink cutting board, can opener, garlic press, toilet brush, two scented candles, hooks for my kitchen utensils, paper towel rack, dish rack, sponges, and two accordion style file folders for my genealogy papers...and all for less than $20.


As usually, I became a bit misty eyed as I began sorting through the birth, marriage, and death certificates, wills, deeds, etc.  My mom was so young, only 20, when she said 'I do' at 7:30 pm on on July 20, 1946, and despite the fact that the marriage turned out to be a sham, she stuck with him until the day he died on July 15, 1989.   I always get a little more emotional at this time of the year.  It was lonely growing up as an only child and even lonelier now that everyone from my family of origin has passed over.  There's not a day goes by that I don't miss them, but around holiday time, it digs a little deeper to the heart.  (Sigh)  But, Christmas past is just that...Christmas past.  So, each year, I remember mourn the loss, and then I move on to Christmas present and the loved ones who gather around me.  And I know that I am blessed. 

 "Each Christmas I remember
The ones of long ago;
I see our mantelpiece adorned
With stockings in a row.

Each Christmas finds me dreaming
Of days that used to be,
When we hid presents here and there,
For all the family.

Each Christmas I remember
The fragrance in the air,
Of roasting turkey and mince pies
And cookies everywhere.

Each Christmas finds me longing
For Christmases now past,
And I am back in childhood
As long as memories last."

- Carice Williams-

6 comments:

  1. i wonder why it is that Christmas tugs at our hearts? it happens to many
    cannot wait to see your new home.. don't forget to send me your address xo

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  2. I am an only child too but I made sure I have children and grandchildren to gather round at the holidays. Not so lonely anymore. I am however, the matriarch now, every once else has passed.

    But I am left with incredible memories of Christmas past that resurface to warm my spirit.

    Happy Yule to you and hubby.

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  3. So sorry to hear hubby's back is bothering him. Back pain truly sucks. It's nice to remember the past, but the here and now is terrific, no matter what the issues. Make so memories and love living in the moment. Love you!

    (((HUGS)))

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  4. Good luck with getting more done, today... On your agenda.

    Btw Dear One, I don't know how to say it techy, but...... The words-part-of-your-entry (your post) is hard to read. Because it is scrolling over a pic of Little Birds On A Dec. 25th Sign. You need to ............ Have a plain background, where your post is to be read. But I can't say this, in a techy way. Perhaps someone else will be able to be more clear.

    "The holly's up, the house is all bright,
    The tree is ready, the candles alight:
    Rejoice and be glad, all children tonight!"

    ~~P. Cornelius

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  5. Past, present and future -- all blending together this year in Christmas and your move!

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  6. Chin up...this too shall pass my friend. 'I always drop a 20 spot in that store. Me and GADGETS ;0)
    (((hugs)))Pat

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