Monday, October 15, 2012

Monday Morning This and That

There is a harmony in autumn, and a luster in its sky,
Which through the summer is not heard or seen,
As if it could not be, as if it had not been!

Percy Bysshe Shelley

Good morning.  Twas an unusual weekend weatherwise.  Saturday felt like Winter had arrived, and by Sunday we were back in the 70's.  On Saturday, I woke early, dressed, and headed to the market.  Cooking weekend, you know. I honestly did not want to go back home.  I wanted to savor the freshness of the air, and, of course, my mind was identifying at least a dozen things I am going to need for fall and winter, but alas, we have to eat so head on home I did. 

The cold weather was a blessing, and spending the entire afternoon in the kitchen over the stove was not as grueling as it was in the summer when I was running back and forth into the living room to get in front of the AC...and cooking in the nude. Not a pretty sight.  I made two pots of hearty stews--one chicken and one beef-- for myself and was pleasantly surprised about how well these recipes, which, by the way, I made up in my head, came out.  

Couldn't take any pictures for you.  Left my phone at work, on my desk, and spent the entire weekend saying a prayer that it was still there when I returned.  Weekend maintenance workers are known for their sticky fingers.  Would you believe they actually stole one of our baby frogs  right out of the tank as well as my 99 cent bottle of hand sanitizer, my hand cream, pens, staplers, etc.  In other words, they will take anything that is not nailed down.

This afternoon I meet with my Endocrinologist.  He'll be the one make the final decision as to whether or not I will need a biopsy on the nodules on my thyroid.  My doctor stated she is reasonably sure that these are benign nodules, but he might want to take a look anyway.  Although I haven't spoken about it, this has been a rather frightening time for me.  First there was the nodule on my left lung and now three on my thyroid.  I voiced my fears to the doctor, and she stated, "You'd be surprised at what is inside of our bodies.  Your lymph nodes look fine." My pulmonologist nearly assured me that my lung nodule was benign as well, but I won't stop worrying until I have a definitive answer. I want something in black and white. 

Of course, I know that that is my hypochondria acting up again, but I am determined not to let it  get the best of me.  I may worry, but I continue with life and do not let my health concerns get me down. Sometimes I look forward and realize that three-quarters of my life is over now, and no matter how old one is, we can never know how much time we have left.  Life is meant to be lived, to be enjoyed.  Life is indeed a gift and one that we should always treasure.

If one burdens the future with one's worries, it cannot grow organically. I am filled with confidence, not that I shall succeed in worldly things, but that even when things go badly for me I shall still find life good and worth living.

Etty Hillesum


  1. The thing I wasn't prepared for when I reached "older age" was the worrying. I worried when my kids were young too - but didn't expect this. Hang in and try to think positively. The weather here is the same - winter for a few days and now, not. strange. You amaze me with your cooking days. Some days just one meal is too much cooking for me!!

  2. So happy that the weather cooperated with your cooking Sat.!!!! And hope your phone is there, on Monday AM!

    Best wishes with your health issues. We all have some, but it's still a shock, when our own rear their ugly heads. You are doing so well, with keeping your worry down, though. Hugs.......


  3. I am glad it is stew/soup season again. Smells so good cooking, and tastes so good eating!
    Keep a positive thought about the health issues. And never be hesitant to ask questions of your doctors.

  4. I'm glad your Dr. told you that probably the lymph nodes are benign. I understand completely about being worried until you hear the final word and think it's a perfect plan not to get caught into the "what if's". Easier said than done, but we know you can do it.

  5. hope your apt. goes well this afternoon. Will be thinking of you. blessings.

  6. I'm thinking of you tonight Mary and will ask Creator to Hover over you...
    I love you,

  7. Here's hoping that all our respective nodes, lumps, bumps and humps are benign!

  8. It's good to know for sure. I'm sure your Dr. knows what's what - but it is nice to know for yourself.

    Here's something that may bring you some cheer - you've won one of the books in this week's giveaway! Pop me an email when you have a moment and let me know where to send it. (rueandhyssop AT gmail DOT com)