Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Learning to Be Patient

No person can think clearly when
his or her fists are clenched.

George Jean Nathan

Oh my, let me tell you about patience.  Since Friday I've had to use every last ounce of it I have and now am feeling as if one more stressor comes my way, the pressure cooker within will burst.  To begin with,  I'd looked forward to this past three-day weekend for weeks; it was going to be a time of sleeping late and catching up on some much-needed rest.    Between the office move, the packing at home, the stress of looking for an apartment,  I surely needed it.

So, Saturday comes along, it's 7:30 am in the morning.  I lazily gaze over at the clock, stretch, and roll over in the hopes of catching a couple more hours.  Not meant to be.  Just as I was about to doze off, there was such a commotion in the hallway that I flew out of the bed.  The men were there to paint and lay tiles in the hallway, making the house look 'prettier' to sell. Now mind you, they were supposed to have begun on Tuesday, and the job would have already been finished, but they decided they were going to wait for the weekend to start.  Gee, thanks!!!!   Ironically, I had just said to hubby the night before "Watch, they probably waited for me to be home to do it."  A lesson careful what you say.  It just might come true.

So, to make long story short, they worked from about 8 am to 1 pm...and they did this on all three days of the weekend.  Grrrr!!!  Really wanted to let them have it, but really, what would have been accomplished?  Anger does nothing but destroy the angry person and all those around him or her. The guys were just doing their job.  How were they to know I had a special weekend planned for myself?  I ended up kissing my sleep good-bye and utilizing the extra time to do some packing...and really got a lot of it done. 

Fast forward to Tuesday morning.  I arrive at work at 8:20 and find clients already in the program and eating their breakfast.  No staff is on the premises.  The cleaning lady let them in.  What a huge 'no, no' that is.  Guess what happened when I mentioned it to the boss?  His reply was, "Maybe we will have to start opening a little earlier."   In the old place, clients were not allowed upstairs until 9 am.  Here it has been 8:30 am.  Now, he's talking about it being earlier.  We have clients who live in the building.  Perhaps we should start bringing our jammies and spend the night.  Didn't tell my boss what I was really thinking, that he spoils these clients too much.  Instead, I marched back to my desk and got out the Halloween decor I had bought over the weekend and had a great old time setting it up.

And, last, but not least, was speaking to my landlady last night.  Do you know what she said to me?  "Do you really want to move?  Because I don't want to sell."  Can you believe it?  I've been tormenting myself for weeks, packing, searching for a place, worrying about the future, and now she comes out with this?  "No, I really don't want to move," I responded, "but I honestly cannot keep going on with this seesaw...selling, not selling, etc.  I've already resigned myself to moving, and I just can't go back now.  We've already been told once that we can stay, only to have the rug pulled out from under us a few weeks later."   Before I hung up, I assured her that I won't leave her in a lurch, that once we find a place, we'll be sure to give her ample notice, but in my mind I was saying, "I refuse to be anyone's yo-yo anymore."

So, that is what has been going on with me.  Hmmm!!!  Wonder if these negative energies have something to do with the Aries Full Moon.  If it does, I think I channeled my anger very well.

The most extraordinary thing about the

oyster is this. Irritations get into its
shell. It does not like them. But when
it cannot get rid of them, it uses the
irritation to do the loveliest thing
an oyster ever has a chance to do.
If there are irritations in our lives
today, there is only one prescription:
make a pearl. It may have to be a pearl
of patience, but, anyhow, make a pearl.
And it takes faith and love to do it.

Harry Emerson Fosdick


  1. I'd say you have done quite well considering...

  2. Hello from one of your "Aries Moon" crazy sisters. I totally understand your rant and how you feel. Why I'm feeling quite pissed off myself just reading it! How dare that landlady try to make YOU feel guilty for leaving when she told you that you had to go. Too bad. Guess she should have thought of that before she told you that she was selling and you had to leave.

    As for work, just ignore that silly mention of coming in earlier. you can't do it, but your boss doesn't need to know that yet. If they do change the time to say, a half hour earlier, just have an excuse for being late for the first little while until they get used to the fact that you won't be there earlier. I doubt anyone is going to fire a good person for that - there's not enough good people around to replace you, believe me - I used to work in HR.

    I think that sometimes, justifiable anger is a wonderful energy and that you should find a way to work with it towards your goals, both in the physical and the magical worlds.

    I feel good about this energy shift. I think good will come of it.

  3. Too bad about your sleepy plans! But you made the best of it and got some packing done. This landlady sounds like a real problem. Don't fall for any more of her changeable ways, just as you have stated about being a yo-yo. I think you will be much happier and more at peace in a whole new environment. And also, as you have pointed out, she will probably be talking next week about how she can't wait to get rid of the house!! I am glad you did some Halloween decorating at work!!

  4. I'm so glad you told your landlady that you're not her personal yo-yo! Keep on packing!

  5. Sorry for all the crap-o-la, but good for you, for sticking up for yourself, with this yo-yo land lady.

    And on that topic, how could you want to stay there, with all the bad things which have been happening? Upstairs son won't deal with your leak... Other son uses basement, for loud music... Etc.... Etc.... Etc....

    Hooray for this Aries Full Moon! :-)

    Gentle hugs,
    "October is the fallen leaf, but it is also a wider horizon more clearly seen. It is the distant hills once more in sight, and the enduring constellations above them once again." ~~Hal Borland

  6. Hi dear Mary...finally getting my head up for a breather....golly.....sounds like a lot is going on with you, too. I have a friend who says...."hissy fits are so UNDER RATED......" I'm glad you had yours.....good for you!!!



  7. Aries Moon? Soooooooooooooo that's whats wrong with me?

    Seriously.....I feel your pain m/f.

  8. are a pearl my friend. And I'm so happy you stuck to your guns and are continuing to make your just isn't safe where you live anymore and I really believe the Blessed Universe is divinely orchestrating your move.

    (((Gentle Hugs My Friend)))

  9. That first quote is so very true.

    I agree with you not wanting to be someones yo yo. This is something you need to take into your own hands or it will make you feel so bad and angry everytime you come home and everytime you see her.