It's been awhile since I just shot the breeze about nothing in particular. Well, this is one of those days. Things have been rather quiet here. My co-worker is ACTUALLY working now. Something woke the boss's up because they are really on top of things right now....maybe the fear of losing all their other workers, or perhaps the fear of an audit. At any rate, it will be awhile til she has caught up so until then, the rest of us will have to bear the brunt of the new intakes, but at least hope is finally on the horizon...
...Speaking about hope, I've been feeling kind of out of sorts lately...physically as well as emotionally. I've another co-worker who just got her masters, and she has been looking for work. She is the Senior Counselor here, and I just know that when she finds a job, that position will be mine. My boss has all but told me so. What a great honor and quite an achievement!!!! Although not a management position, it will be as close as I can get at this point as well as a promotion with better salary. Here's the problem. As all of you who have followed me for awhile already know, I suffer from fibromyalgia, and the pain is getting more severe. Some days it is such a struggle making it up the subway stairs. Since I am 63 now, I have to figure that there is some arthritis involved there as well. The truth is, I don't know how much longer I can continue to work. Not only will I lose out on the position if she doesn't find something soon, but I also have to wonder how we will pay the rent and the bills....but, you know, I've never been one to give up, and I don't plan to now. Sometimes I may feel a bit sorry for myself, but I get over it quickly. I've never been one to give up, and I refuse to let this get me down. Only by living life fully, am I living life. And, I do feel better already. Just talking about things has always been healing for me.
It does not matter how slowly you go,
so long as you do not stop.
so long as you do not stop.
On Thursday I had a precognitive dream. Nothing earth shattering and the kind of psychic dream that makes you shake your head and say, You just have to be kidding. I dreamed about my job's Halloween party. Nothing unusual about that; it was on my mind when I went to bed. My dream party was fantastic and there were so many clients present that I didn't know. (Perhaps they were past life friends). Well, at some point during the party I was serving lunch...spaghetti and meat sauce. The spaghetti was in this huge pot and was all sticky and clumped together, but with the sauce it looked heavenly...and I remember wondering if there would be enough left over for me. Now, mind you, Friday is NOT my day to serve lunch. Actually I don't serve lunch at all. I do breakfast on Monday and Tuesday....so when I got to work, it came as a surprise to find out that the person who serves lunch was out, and I was the only one available to serve...and guess what lunch was? Sticky spaghetti and meat sauce. (sigh) Of all the precognitive dreams to have, I had to have one about food.
My Samhain was very quiet. The doorbell didn't ring even once, and even though I didn't expect it to, I have to say I was kind of disappointed. I have NEVER had an place conducive to Halloween. The entrance to my last apartment was down the steps and in the backyard. I loved the sense of isolation there...only me, hubby and my magical garden. Now, I am in a predominantly Jewish neighborhood, and they don't believe in Halloween. They have a Halloween type activity during the summer when the children dress up and go house to house. I forgot what it is called. So, I did the banishing ritual I posted the other day, did a little work with my Runes, ate some of the chocolate I had bought...just in case...and spent the evening honoring my ancestors. All and all, it was a great day.
And now I'd like to offer you all the following blessing. It is so moving and touching. I hope you all enjoy....
May the sun
bring you new energy by day.
May the moon
softly restore you by night.
May the rain
wash away your worries.
May the breeze
blow new strength into your being.
May you walk gently through the world
and knows it beauty all the days of your life.