Monday, October 12, 2020

Monday This and That

As Monday rolls around again, I'd like wish you all a wonderful week.  I know it's not easy lately, but we have to make the best of it.  That's all we can do.  We were talking about it in Friday's group.  This is certainly not what I expected from my golden years.  After working 50 years, I was finally having fun, and abruptly on March 12th, that ended when the city closed down.  The center most likely will not open until next year.  But, I am thankful for my online classes.  They are getting me through all this pain and heartache.

I had canceled the food from the city about 3 weeks ago and now have re-ordered it.  We are in the orange zone, and I don't want to take any chances.  Don't want to be running around anymore than I have to, and to be honest, those meals weren't the best, but I am feeling it in the pocket.  I didn't eat the entire meal they sent, but I did take the chicken and make it into something delicious.  Plus, they also send a couple of boxes of food.  The box is filled with things like pasta, canned fruits and veggies, cereal, snacks, etc.  That I am really missing.

The other day I had  a dream about an old co-worker only, we were all on a different job and I was a newbie there. She was retiring and everyone had bought her a gift. Funny thing was, everyone bought her a vase. She had all different kinds. I felt bad because I hadn't known about it so I dug in my purse and found some cash, not much, but enough for a gift. I was walking around looking for a store. Everything that was open was restaurants. Finally I wondered into this open air restaurant and in the back they had gifts. Picked up a beautiful white vase with purple flowers on it, but put it down because I wanted to get something different. That's when I woke up. I was trying to go back to sleep to finish the dream so I could see what I bought for her. I will never know what I chose.

The biggest news is this.   We are finally going to bury my son.  Life insurance finally paid off and tomorrow I have to call for prices and steps needed to make it happen.   I've already made a list of things that I have to buy and things I have to do.  I feel so much more at peace now that I can finally lay him to rest and the manner I always wanted.  He deserves the best and he is going to have the best that I can afford.  I love him and miss him so darn much.  Why does this have to be?  Why, instead of planning the holidays do I have to plan my son's funeral?  My heart is broken.

Have a wonderful day.




  1. Thoughts are with you Mary,words are inadequate. Take good care

  2. I am so sorry for what you are going through.
    You need closure and finally to be able to lay your son to rest will be a part of this.

    You are able to take what food you get and turn them into tasty and nutritional meals. It is good that you will be getting help gain.
    Stay Safe 🍁🎃☕🍂🌙🐈

  3. Hugs to you, Mary. I'm glad you can give your son the funeral that will honour him best.

  4. Oh Mary..........big hugs to you.
    I'm glad that you will finally have the closure you need and will be able to put him to rest.

    Is there no other options for food delivery? My grandma, when she lived in a different part of Brooklyn got meals from the Polish/Slavic center I think it was. She would get hot meals every day, extra on Friday to get her through the weekend. I'm just wondering if there aren't any other places for you to go through.

  5. It is good that you can finally lay your son to rest, Mary. My heart is with you as you go through this most difficult time. A mother should have to do this.

  6. Oh Mary.
    Heartfelt hugs and oceans of caring are flowing your way.

  7. Hugs and well wishes to you as you make these sad plans!

  8. Monday would have been my son's 56th sad he didn't make it ...I didn't get to go to his memorial or even know when it was.

  9. Oh how my heart aches for you...I know exactly how you are feeling. The loss of my baby daughter, although 31 years ago, still haunts me.🙁
    Take heart, my dear friend...I am with you in spirit, and am sending you understanding and comfort.

    All my love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤

  10. I am pleased you will be able to lay your son to rest, I think it will help give you closure.
    Please know that you are in my thoughts.

    All the best Jan