Monday This and That

I have to be alone very often. I'd be quite happy if I spent from Saturday night until Monday morning alone in my apartment. That's how I refuel.

Audrey Hepburn

As Monday rolls around again, I wonder where this weekend.  I actually did NOTHING this weekend, but accomplished a lot.  Saturday it rained all day, and I stayed nice in comfy in my flannels which happen to be one of my favorite parts of winter.  I love the feeling of them against my skin. I also love hearing the sound of the pouring rain. It gives me such a feeling of peace. I did a lot of reading and exploring.  Went through my herbal books, found a great candle magic spell for healing which I performed late Saturday night, and dug my crystals out and cleansed them. Now they are ready to work their magic.   

I also did a lot of thinking and processing what I had been told.  You are right.  There is no word to focus so much on the 'C' word.  It was the fear talking, that's all.  Today I woke up in a more positive frame of mind. I guess I just needed some time for processing this latest doctor's visit.  To be honest, I'd gone in there scared, yes, but also talked myself into believing that I'd be told it was a mistake, that the lesion had miraculously disappeared, and when that didn't happen, I fell apart. 

The pulmonoloogist has referred me for another Pet scan. I hope it is approved this time.  Last time the insurance company turned me down. "We're sorry, but we cannot approve this test because we have no proof that this person has wide-spread cancer".  How cold and unfeeling is that? Had they approved the Pet scan before, perhaps this nightmare would have been over by now.  At least I would have known what was going on.  And I really believe it is the unknowing that scares one the most.

Tonight we will be celebrating the Full Moon. Actually, it you had been at my job, you would have thought it was on Friday. The clients were all 'feeling their oats'. I could barely hear myself think. This Full Moon is known as the 'Snow Moon' or the 'Full Snow Moon'. Traditionally, February is the time of the coldest temperatures and when the heaviest snow falls. Some tribes used this name for the January moon they called the February Moon the 'Hunger Moon' or 'Full Hunger Moon' due to the challenging hunting conditions. Other names for this Moon are the 'Quickening Moon', for, although the days are still short and cold, new life is beginning to stir. It has also been called the 'Storm Moon' and 'Little Famine Moon'.

This is the perfect time for one to do a spell to help in facing life's challenges. Consider a spell that will focus on helping you accept the challenge and make it through. I plan on performing my usual simplel little ceremony later this eve--candle lighting, calling on the old ones, and prayer. And don't forget. The Moon is in Virgo, meaning that this is a time for all of us to take some time taking care of our needs--physically, emotionally and spiritually.I see this as the perfect Full Moon for me to do some inner work.  Gosh knows, I have my challenges to face.

May you have warm words on a cold evening, a full moon on a dark night and a smooth road all the way to your door.
Irish Blessing