"Until one has loved an animal,
a part of one's soul remains unawakened.
"
Anatole France
"If having a soul means being able to feel love and loyalty and gratitude, then animals are better off than a lot of humans."
James Herriot)
My heart is broken. Miss Minga crossed the Rainbow Bridge last night. She took a nap this evening and when she woke up she began staggering and falling over. Her head was turned almost backwards and shaking, I knew it was time. She was a little better when we got her to the vet, but even the vet agreed that the compassionate thing to do was to let her go. We might be able to medicate her but that would only keep her alive for maybe a few months. So I held her close and said good bye. Now I am feeling like I should not have let her go. In four months she would have been 23. She was my best friend, the love of my life. I cannot live without her. My tears will not stop.
When I got up this morning I kept waiting for her to run to my feet. That was our morning ritual for oh so long. She'd come to greet me from whichever bed she had chosen to sleep in the night before. Then, when I came to the computer to do my blogs, she come right with me and sit at my feet, very, very quietly. Then, when I was done she automatically ran to the kitchen for her breakfast. This morning she wasn't there. Please, let this be a nightmare.
She loved my feet.
As most of you know we have been without electricity for almost two days. It finally got back on a 4 am. It was so brutally cold in the house and I can't help thinking that that had something to do with her death. She was fine until the heat went out and then her behavior began to change. I love you little girl. I will keep you forever in my heart.
I will be taking some time now for mourning. I will be back. Thanks all for being there for me.
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear this, Mary. Miss Minga was the finest of cats. You did the right thing and gave her the great gift of a peaceful, pain-free passage. She is now a kitten again, playing and tumbling at the feet of Bast.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Mary. What a wonderful, loving kitty. I think you did the right thing for her though I know it's so hard for you. Big hugs and love. She's strong and pain free now, and she knows she was deeply loved with you.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is with you. You were kind and showed your love for her in her last hours, sparing her pain and fear and confusion. May your mourning be gentle.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read that your Miss Minga kitty passed away. She had a long, good life with you. I know our time with our dear pets never seems like it is enough time, but I believe at the end you did what was best for her. She knew how much you loved her. You didn't let her suffer in pain.
ReplyDeleteDon't be surprised if you seem to catch glimpses of her out of the corner of your eye every once in a while in your home. This occasionally happened to us (my husband and I) around here after our 17 year old kitty passed away in his sleep. I believe Miss Minga will continue to be right there with you, but in a different way than you are accustomed to. She will always be in your heart.
Oh Mary....I'm so sorry that this was such a painful goodbye to your fur soul mate. Believe me, I know how excruciating the pain is when our babies leave us for the Rainbow Bridge. You were both blessed to be in each others lives for so many years while I"m sure at the same time, it felt like yesterday you just met. Sending you lots of hugs and white light.
ReplyDeleteMary, I am so sorry. You loved Miss Minga right to the end, and showed it by thinking of her comfort even though your heart was breaking. I still think about my pets and miss them, but they are always with us, sometimes even visiting in dreams. Know that I will be thinking of you and hoping you find a place of peace.
ReplyDeleteYour Miss Minga had a wonderful life with you, she chose you to live with knowing she would be loved and cherished. My thoughts are with you as you go through the grieving process. Lynne
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