Life moves on, whether we act as cowards or heroes. Life has no other discipline to impose, if we would but realize it, than to accept life unquestioningly. Everything we shut our eyes to, everything we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate or despise, serves to defeat us in the end. What seems nasty, painful, evil, can become a source of beauty, joy, and strength, if faced with an open mind. Every moment is a golden one for those who have the vision to recognize it as such.
Henry Miller
Henry Miller
Good morning, everyone. We've been having some beautiful weather, and looks like today is another one of those days. Actually, the past two days have not been cold enough for a sweater or jacket, but it's obvious fall is in the air. I noticed that, despite the warmer temperatures, the leaves have begun to fall. Not much yet, but enough to let you know the seasons are in the midst of change.
Went to the old center yesterday and did a little coloring. There are only three of us in the group, but that's okay. The others just don't know what they are missing. They prefer to play bingo and cards...day after day, week after week. Coloring not only brings back that child in me, but also relieves a lot of the stress I have been under. Wednesday is one day that I really enjoy going to the old center.
I was reading the above quote, and I saw so much of me in it...in that part that spoke of shutting our eyes and running away from things, and how it catches up and defeats us in the end. I guess you might say I spent much of my adult life running away from my health, or better said, from illness. I always thought if no one actually SAID it, it wasn't there. Hence, I never went to the doctor because I didn't want to HEAR any bad news. I prided myself on my good health, and, to be honest, I was in good health up until recently. I just didn't think it would happen to me. It wasn't until I was close to retirement that all kinds of issues popped up--lung nodule, thyroid nodule, Graves Disease, Hypertension, chronic pain. Just when I thought I was about to enjoy life.
Went to the old center yesterday and did a little coloring. There are only three of us in the group, but that's okay. The others just don't know what they are missing. They prefer to play bingo and cards...day after day, week after week. Coloring not only brings back that child in me, but also relieves a lot of the stress I have been under. Wednesday is one day that I really enjoy going to the old center.
I was reading the above quote, and I saw so much of me in it...in that part that spoke of shutting our eyes and running away from things, and how it catches up and defeats us in the end. I guess you might say I spent much of my adult life running away from my health, or better said, from illness. I always thought if no one actually SAID it, it wasn't there. Hence, I never went to the doctor because I didn't want to HEAR any bad news. I prided myself on my good health, and, to be honest, I was in good health up until recently. I just didn't think it would happen to me. It wasn't until I was close to retirement that all kinds of issues popped up--lung nodule, thyroid nodule, Graves Disease, Hypertension, chronic pain. Just when I thought I was about to enjoy life.
But, hey, I still can, but only if I begin taking care of myself. And I mean following up with all doctor's appointments as well as diet and exercise. And above all, stop being my own doctor.
Have a good one.
There's still lots of life left in the old girl yet, Mary!
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