Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once one grows up.
Pablo Picasso
Good morning everyone. Stayed in yesterday and found plenty to do. I spent the morning doing some indoor gardening. Transplanted all but my hanging plants. I need new planters for them. A peer in art class gave me a Chia herb garden she had received as a gift, but cannot use because she doesn't have large enough window sills. However, after reading the instructions, I felt it was still too cool to plant them. Personally, I've never purchased any Chia products so I am not sure what to expect.
Anybody ever try these. Awesome, and only two Weight Watcher points.
I had joined a Facebook group for those who have lost their feline friends, and at first I loved it. And for awhile, it was just what I needed. A place to express my grief where everyone understood what I was going through. But, yesterday I realized it was holding me back from moving past my grief. I found myself becoming enmeshed in everyone else's grief. They would post about their cats death with a picture of their beloved fur baby, and I'd find myself sobbing, and soon the overwhelming grief over the loss of Miss Minga would return. When I woke up yesterday and checked Facebook and ended up beginning my day in tears, I knew I had to leave the group. There was no way I was going to be able to stay and offer support to anyone as I was too fragile myself.
It's not that I want to forget her. I will never do that. But I want to come to that place where I can remember and focus of the joys that she brought me and not stay mired in this dark pit I seem to have fallen in. To do that I cannot be looking at photos of people holding their beloveds in the last few moments of their life. Personally, I don't think photos like that should be put out there for all to see, and if one chooses to have a photo of that time, that is their 'personal' choice, but it wasn't mine. I play that picture in my mind over and over again. I don't need a photo to remind me.
Practiced painting yesterday. Wanted to do something for spring. I sure do have a lot to learn when it comes to painting flowers. Looks like a school kid did this one. LOL!!!! I think I do best when I keep it simple, but I've been unable to do that. I always keep adding more and more. I'm waiting on a book from Amazon about drawing and painting flowers. This was just a practice run. Don't think I'll be hanging this on my wall.
Speaking of art, that's where I am headed today so I'd best get a move on. Time to shower and have a bite to eat before I go. Hoping you all have a good one.
I think its wonderful that you found a group to help you with your grief, I agree about the photos. Completely, I certainly would NOT want a photo taken of me in my last hours and I know my pets would not have wanted that eiether, I owe them more respect than that.
ReplyDeleteYour painting is lovely, beautiful flowers for spring!
You are wise to move on from the Facebook group. It was a good short-term support but you're right, you don't want to get mired in others' grief.
ReplyDeleteI think your painting is beautiful - not everything has to be photo-realistic, and you've captured the joy with those colors.
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